today i feel essentially, like a duck.


calm on the surface, and pedaling hard as fuck underneath. 

 
I'm looking at pictures and right now I really miss production, shoots, the stage, and some other random fragments of my past. Time works in mysterious ways. I find it difficult to honestly comprehend that a year ago I was settling into a new country, a new room, new friends. Same time this year and I'm settling into an office, new work, new plans. 

I'm not saying I want to go back, I'm just not sure I want to go forward, either.

I managed to catch a glimpse of what people in their 30s start to think and feel like, and maybe I don't want to be 30 yet. 

I want to be a different kind of 30. Haha I don't know what I want. 

wait, Wednesday's over already? 


second night in a row of weird dreams. yesterday though in my dream I held a conversation in korean and even remembered what i said. Yes, slowly, very slowly, i will prove all the naysayers that i can handle a simple conversation in korean. maybe not even simple. maybe even semi complex 3 or 4 sentences about hobbies, the weather and things we like to do. (i kid there are not naysayers no one cares whether I can speak korean HAHA)

my eyes are suddenly distracted by the blinking lights of my bb. its 1.17am that means offstone is over right?

there is news on cnn about the india pakistan world cup match, about syria's show of support for its leadership, about the upcoming GE, and the criticisms and praise towards the new inductees. but these days all i'm really interested in is news of what is happening in Japan. i think i am getting a little overly consumed by it and will now take a step back and CHILL OUT.

which reminds me. i need to do research on radioactivity and present my findings tmr for discussion at work. right. i haven't done much research, though it is a very interesting topic. point is that i cant seem to do much work related things once im home. 

time for prayers, and then bed.  

 

 
a. k. t. f. 

Some days, like today, I think of all the crazy things I want to do in my life, and I have not a clue where to start.

Isn't it amazing the depths your mind can bring you to, well amazing and potentially scary and crushing, but amazing all the same. 


 

 
heh this guy really inspires me. :D

 

heh thinking back to the days when we first heard supreme team in cocoon. aint no magic like supermagic! 

k back to (attempted) work.